I just wanted to write a little bit about how I've been and what my goals are for 2016.
I've decided that I am only going to post on my blog when I genuinely feel like it not because I feel I have to.
Lately I've been struggling with a few things, its no secret to the people who know me that I don't really have many aspirations. I haven't known what I've wanted to do with my life in terms of career for as long as I can remember. I will tell you something though, for me that is the most frustrating thing in the world.
I am someone who likes to plan and organise, know what's around the corner. Not knowing what I want out of life has caused me to give up, not only on my dreams but on myself. The funny thing is, I didn't know it was happening until it was too late. It feels to me now like I was in a trance for all that time while parts of my personality were getting lost in the atmosphere.
Now, awake, I'm desperate to get myself back, so that's my goal for this year - to find myself again...what makes up me?...what makes me happy?...what do I disagree with?....what are my dreams?
I've been researching the most effective ways to overcome issues like this and the most popular theories include:
- Discovering what you would love to do through brainstorming.
- Start thinking for yourself and reacting to situations without filtering your reactions based on how you feel you should react.
- Get yourself out there, social interaction with people who love you and know you can be one of the best ways to find yourself again. Even though you probably don't feel like leaving the house, getting out at these times will do you the world of good.
- Learn to be your own company, as much as it is important that you interact with people it is also important that you can be alone with your own thoughts. Taking time out each day to think on your own can really help.
These are just a few things I've picked up when reading around the subject, I definitely want to be around my friends more and do the things I really want to do rather than just staying at home. But I think the most important thing I need to do is to trust my own judgement. I've realised, I don't generally have opinions on much, but we need those opinions to spark what we are passionate about. That is something I am desperate to get back. I want to feel passionate again I want to have a drive to better my life, enjoy my life to the full rather than just seeing what life will throw at me and dealing with it. I want to have an impact.
Like I said I'm only going to post when I really do feel like it but I will definitely keep you updated on how I'm getting on. If you follow my instagram: littlethoughtsbigsmiles you will be able to follow me on my journey to finding myself again! Wish me luck :)
Kirsty x